I am beginning to wonder if I am an alcoholic. I drink four to five mixed drinks at night, usually after work, usually between 11-2. .. then I go to bed and do it all again the next night.. but this is every night … I don’t really crave this alcohol, I only know that without it I will have a great difficulty sleeping

I went to bed last week after just two glasses of wine, passed out for three hours, woke up to go to the bathroom, then laid in bed hallucinating and falling in and out of bad dreams for hours .. I couldn’t tell my dreams from reality and was hearing voices while awake… does this mean DTs? This is the first time this has happened to me … but I have been drinking like that for close to 2 years .. I am very young (25) and certainly don’t wake up in the morning craving alcohol or anything … is there anything I can do to avoid detox? Is there any hope of a safe at home detox?? I am a bartender and could in no way afford treatment. ..I have other medical bills I am currently paying on monthly programs and do no think I could add another payment. I do currently have blue cross blue shield PPO

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I am beginning to wonder if I am an alcoholic. I drink four to five mixed drinks at night, usually after work, usually between 11-2. .. then I go to bed and do it all again the next night.. but this is every night … I don’t really crave this alcohol, I only know that without it I will have a great difficulty sleeping… then the other night I went to bed after two glasses of wine, passed out for three hours, woke up to go to the bathroom, then laid in bed hallucinating and falling in and out of bad dreams for hours .. I couldn’t tell my dreams from reality and was hearing voices while awake… does this mean DTs? This is the first time this has happened to me … but I have been drinking like that for close to 2 years .. I am very young and certainly don’t wake up in the morning craving alcohol or anything … is there anything I can do to avoid detox? Is there any hope of a safe at home detox?? My job is very prolific in the community and I could not handle entering a detox center (or afford it) … I think for the time being I am going to try a weaning method, I am just scared of having a seizure? Does that seem likely for someone like me, that drinks as I do?? I need help. I wonder if it would be too risky to just up and try to stop drinking for a couple of days, given my current conditions. I experience no side effects the 21 hours a day I don’t drink, so maybe I am not past the limit yet? Before involving medicine I wish I could just try out a couple of days not drinking but I am not sure if that would be too risky.
All I want is to stop!!
Tonight!!

I quit drinking alcohol a week ago. Last week I detoxed the shit out but I still feeling sluggish, depressed and I suffer from daily headaches. I have lots of alcoholic friends so I know all about withdrawal symptoms and risks. I got past the detox stage and now am staying clean. BUT, my old drinky-buddies are not with me now which is good cuz they still drink. I need help.

Is there a vitamin or something to help me with cravings and these ill feelings? I refuse medication and I refuse to go to meetings unless it’s online. Any resources would be of great assistance. Thanks in advance.